hello ladies and gentlemen. i got something to say

hermm it might be a long stories thats relate of many things
i admit now i feel empty and hopless somehow 
macam orang tengah putus asa

this is because of my future plan studies. hermm macam macam jadi
first applied matriks tak dapat juga
somehow at first aku tak tahu nak cakap ape about failed that permohonan
then after i saw my friends kept updating 
their tweets and status facebook about the got the offer from matriks
masa tuh aku start fikir macam-macam dalam otak ni

am i too stupid until KPM rejected my application?
am i unqualified to continue my life by study at universities?
why im unlucky like other people?
why i cant be like them?

but i moved on because of maktab and upu
eventhough i didnt get the offer at first time but aku still hantar rayuan
hermm and then i check on Lower Form 6.
this is somehow aku frustrated
aku, echah, minah, zani, qushwa and qistina
offered to daftar as form 6 student

we going back to school? hermm somehow we want to forget school life
but bayangkan kami dapat same offer bout KEMANUSIAAN
all of us in the same class
can you guys imagine that? hermm aku rasa porak kelas tu nanti
hermm somehow kteorang akan lebih gelak ketawa bermain dari belajar
herm nak nak pulak kelas tuh akan diajar puan hasmalaili
lagilah bahana kelas tuh nanti esp masa die mengajar nanti

so much to thinks right now. seriously aku berserabut sekarang ni
no one know my feeling right now hermm hanya allah yang tahu

*shit siapa yang bersiul masa aku tengah tulis ni. kacau lah

lets continue hermm ok harini keluar pulak Maktab
aku, minah echah and zani applied this pengajian
konon nak jadi cikgu sekolah rendah lah

hermm but today check 1 lebih tadi
semalam kata pukul 12. then pagi tadi bukak kata pukul 2
so aku bersabar jelah

hermm the results was WE FAILED

again?

*this somehow sangat mengecewakan

aku tanya balik pada diri aku ni
am i wasn't good enough to hold my own diploma, degree and so on?
hemrm am i to stupid kpm?
hermm aku da hopelesss
im tired untuk mengharap sekarang ni
fikiran memang buntu habis

kalau aku orang kaya aku suruh mak daftar aku dekat swasta
is this the only way KPM dan KPT treat me?
how sad aku rasa macam diperbodohkan.

hermm somehow aku memang pon sound stupid
semua huruf pon ada dalam results aku.
so aku harap orang tak payah tanya results aku
aku muak dengan semua ni. 
Kbye

KPT if anyone of you read my blog
pleasee gave a big chance for me and my bff further our studies

pleasee ya allah bagi perfect nine sambong pelajaran kami

NORADINI
SHAHZANI
QISTINA
MUHAIMIN
MUHAIMINAH
IZZATI
QUSHWA
AYESHA
FARALINA

*aku harap kita dapat ape kita nak
dan pleaseee pray supaya aku dapat
course kulinari or pengurusan pelancongan

YA ALLLAH HEELLPPSS USSSS
BUKAK kan jalan buat kami <3 :'(

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